I am a control freak. I like to be in control. Of everything. Or at least everything that affects me and my family. It doesn't matter what the situation is, I want to be in control. And I want to be in control of those things over which I have no control. But the things that I can control, I usually don't control. (Am I starting to sound like Paul here?)
For example, I know that I can control my emotions. I can choose to be happy. I can choose to not let another person cause me to be angry. I can choose to not let other people's emotions or moods affect mine. I can choose to separate myself emotionally from a situation and look at it objectively. However, until today, (and this is going to sound really simple) I never thought about controlling my faith.
I'm doing a Bible study right now and today's lesson was by Gina Rago. Gina is a marketer for Christianity Today International and today's lesson was first published on Kyria's [magazine] blog in August, 2010. Gina shared a personal experience she went through a number of years ago and there were many things happening at that time that she could not control. She writes, "Even when everything around me was swirling out of control,when I chose to trust him, I was on solid ground. Everything may have been shaken, but what would remain was a deeply rooted faith in Christ Jesus and His sovereignty....I couldn't control those circumstances, but I could focus on the things I could control. I could control my faith." To control and increase her faith, she would offer God a sacrifice of praise.
Control my faith. I can control my faith. No matter what is going around me, it's in my ability to control my faith. I can choose to be a doubting Thomas or a person after God's own heart, like David. I can keep my eyes focused on God or I can fret about the circumstance over which I have no control.
Today, and from this day forward, I choose to control my faith.
What will you choose?